I pretty much consider myself to be "friendless."
I have a lot of acquaintances, but only a handful have time to message me and ask me how I am. I miss those days when I was in high school, when the bonds of friendship were really strong. However, life happened and me and my high school besties kinda lost touch with each other. Thankful though for messaging apps. Although it is rare, but we still send each other birthday messages.
I don't have any social life too. I rarely go out of the house. I have such low self esteem that meeting up with high school or college batchmates scares the hell out of me. I look at their photos on Facebook and boy, they did not even age a bit. But me? OMG. I look so old and ugly compared to them. I am afraid that if I attend such gatherings, I would feel very inferior. What do I have to tell them anyway? What stories can I share? My life's misfortunes?
I wish to have a friend or two. Someone who is on the same status as me. A mother, housewife, (now widowed), a grandmother. Maybe someone who I can exchange recipes with. Just a simple, caring, ordinary person. Where can that person be? Near or far, doesn't matter. Someone who can listen, provide encouragement, someone who can give me a hug (virtual or physical) when I need one. Someone who will be there for me as I will be for them.
I wish to find THAT friend. This song below perfectly says it all.
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